Even when they keep acting like assholes.
Jesus said, ‘If you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins’. This is a problem because I just want my enemies to burn.
Three thoughts that help me, through gritted teeth, to love and forgive my enemies are:
1. If we don’t love our enemies in this life, we will never do it. Isaiah 66:24 says that in the new earth, we will not love our enemies, but we will look upon them with abhorrence.
2. Revelation 14:13 asserts that the forgiveness of our enemies will not be forgotten.
3. No sin goes unpaid for. Justice is either done on the cross of Christ, or in the future in hell. Romans 12:19 commands us to let God to any avenging.
Weary of wandering from my God, and now made willing to return. I hear and bow me to the rod for you, not without hope, I mourn. I have an advocate above, a friend before the throne of love. Oh Jesus, full of truth and grace. More full of grace than I of sin. Yet once again I seek your face. Open your arms and take me in. And freely my backslidings heal and love the faithless sinner still. You know the way to bring me back, my fallen spirit to restore. Oh, for your truth and mercy’s sake, forgive and bid me sin no more. The ruins of my soul, repair. And my my heart a house of prayer. The stone to flesh again convert. The veil of sin again remove. Sprinkle your blood upon my heart and melt it by your dying love. This rebel heart by love subdue, and make it soft, and make it new. Give to my eyes refreshing tears, and kindle my relentings now…
Look to Jesus, and He will save you. You have nothing else to do but look. This thought is deeply imprinted on my heart thanks to Charles Spurgeon, who has the most passionate story of coming to Christ I have ever heard.
I can’t tell you how He will save you or what it will look like when He empowers you to change. It may even be that things get worse before they get better. But I can tell you that He will change you to your very core, and you will just fall in love with Him.
When I think of my own journey, He has always been faithful. In every season, sun or storm. On top of a mountain, or in the heart of a demon-possessed valley.
All you have to do is look.
Look here! Do you see that man hanging on the cross? Do you behold His agonized head drooping meekly down upon His breast? Do you see that crown of thorns causing drops of blood to trickle down his cheeks? Do you see His hands pierced and rent and His blessed feet, supporting the weight of His own frame, rent well near in two with the cruel nails? Sinner! Do you hear Him shriek, “Eloi, Eloi, lama sabacthani?” Do you hear Him cry, “It is finished!”? Do you see His head hang down in death? Do you see that side pierced with the spear and the body taken from the cross? Oh, look here! Those hands were nailed for you! Those feet gushed gore for you. That side was opened wide for you.
"Look, sinner," He says this morning to you. "Look to Me, and be saved."”
Sometimes there is nothing you can do but trust God’s spirit is doing his work in you, producing yearning after himself, not admiration for yourself.
Sometimes you have to trust that God is knocking on the door of people’s hearts even when you can’t hear it.
Always you must know that God called us to make disciples of all men, not mere converts.
Sometimes you have to be still and know God is God when you feel you have no hope for change.
Tears run down my face just like the last
No different from yesterday
Sick from the mirror
Do these prayers feel sincere?
The dirt never washes clear
You were good, so good
I grew to love your lies
Until I put you in the past
Love as lust until he revealed
The man behind the mask
Will the scars go away?
In this world, I have no place
Forgive me Jesus, this time I cry
I rip my heart out to give to you
Alone it never did me any good
Hold me close, wash my mind
Destroy the me that lives in side
I’ll never forget that night
The night Jesus Christ made the blackness white